I am sooo completely screwed.

I do not believe I have ever been so trapped as I am right now.

I have been debatin this for 12 hours, couldn't sleep worth a hoot and have been mulin this over an over. And the only conclusion I can come to is: I am jes so horribly screwed.

Sarah complains that she can not talk to me, thats another issue entirely, could write a book on that alone, but it does bother er in the way she thinks bout it.

So here I am, we've talked an talked bout thins an stuff is comin unraffled all over agin.

I'm really stuck here, I haven't anyone to talk to either... gee I'm so screwed I don't even know how to explain it. See, if I say sumthin bout what I've been thinkin bout Sarah's jes goin to hit the roof, say she cain't talk to me etc but I feel I really need to say sumthin.

This is an impossible situation.

This truly is death by gun shot er death by land mine, either way I go I am jes as dead.

Read Sarahs last jornal entery

An know that despite everything that has been said, talked bout, argued over etc was a complete and utter waste of time, energy, even resoruces. We are NOT done havin kids.

I will NOT be responsible for the destruction of anyones dreams, and certainly not my own wifes.

No doubt I will end up hearin over an over agin how I "missed the point", or "didn't understand". Though, truly I am not nearly as dense as so many folks think. I can infact pickup on hints an this is not the first time Sarah has made such comments. It's constantly been an ordeal of Sarah flip floppin on this, more kids, no more kids. Right now, er up until last night I was jes waitin to see which whoop I was goin to jump through. I think I know the clear path now however; I will NOT be the cause of er dreams bein destroyed/lost period.

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Dude destroying dreams is what marriage is all about....


I was going to either be a pro basketball player or a beach comber in the Caribbean prior to the ball and chain...


Look at me now....


No sir....when you get married, you ARE RESPONSIBLE to your spouse in every way (and them to you...)

That said, it is UP TO YOU AND SPOUSE to make dreams and goals that YOU BOTH make as a couple...otherwise, whats the point?

Right now, mine is to retire and watch Wheel of Fortune with an unlimited supply of Triscuit, however wifey has other plans of which I'm not sure, so I guess we need to talk.

Sig worthy. :haha:

I've heard that marriage, in part, is to help break down the delusions we have about ourselves. Marriage is one of God's Holy Mysteries, which helps us work out our salvation. In it we mystically become One with our spouse, which is bound to create friction as our sinful passions collide. Thanks be to God for the voluntary suffering of marriage!

Gonna have to disagree with you that it is all voluntary. The suffering you force me to go through.. :nono: Huh uh!--that ain't voluntary! If I could I'd beat you oer the head till you go comatose for a while, hire someone else to get the crap done (you know what I'm talking about) and then have you awakend from your coma...


Love you. :)

:blink: Talk about your unconditional love..