So what to make of this information..... what to make of it... I truly don't know, although I believe it confirms all of my fears, everthin I have said, worried bout. An its truly truly a very sad thin an a very very sad day. My heart has jes been broken beyond repair I believe.

To jes be honest, to jes tell ya'll waht I know, this isn't an attempt to turn everbody against Sarah er anythin, but I donno how to deal wit this, my heart is broken.

Sarah called me so that I could talk wit Katheryn, Kat gits on the phone, an immediately starts tellin me off for "bein mad at er mother", then immediately after that Sarah in the back ground starts tellin Kat off for talkin bout anythin other then ersef.

So I try to question Kat a lil bout it, miserable asI am that I am even askin my own daughter what she's talkin bout. Of course Sarah's right there in the back ground, I cain't git Kat to go to another room an I don't want to put er through anymore. So I ask er, "who told you I was mad at mama?" She tammers an says no body told er, she jes knew. Well maybe... I doubt it, Sarah has prevented my talkin to Kat for a week now, so I donno. Tells me they prayed for me, well that would be nice other then the fact that Kat tells me that they prayed to git the devil off MY back.... me.... mine agin.... I'm sooo not surprised, jes crushed.

Sarah, you swore to me you wouldn't poison my kids agisnt me, I am so very ashamed of you. You did no better then what my own mother did to us as kids, the thin you gave me your word you wouldn't do, you've apperently done. How ashamed of you I am, I feel nuthin now, I am numb an I am so very sad to say, but if I wasn't done before, I am defintely done now. I have given up prayin, but if there was one last prayer I could utter, it would be that I were not as done as I feel I am.

Always me... always me... an now my children. My own flesh you would do such a thin. I am so very ashamed of you, so very disappointed in you, you've played the good lil woman role an now your true colors are bein shown by my own children. How very sad this is, I'm sooo sorry I have been such the horrible man you think I have been, how sad that you are so bitter that you would turn my own children against me, my innocent children, whose only fault was bein born?? Through actions of thier parents? How we have fallen soo much, how horrible this day has become, I truly am now utterly alone an there's not much more point in any of this is there? marriage? life? any of it?

I will an always have loved you, I'm sooo sorry this is where it ends.

Louis, I am not going to argue with you but I did NOT and NEVER would poison our children against you. Katheryn is almost 5 and she's not stupid. She's said things in the past when she's picked up on things. You know your daughter, you know how smart and perceptive she is. You know she picks things out of thing air to pray for. She told you she prayed for her aunt as well. I did stop her from saying any more about that because I KNEW this is what you would think. When she's said stuff in the past about you making me upset you have mentioned that I was turning her against you and all she was doing was observing from her own 4 year old eyes. She doesn't know who's right or wrong only that mama's crying and daddy's yelling. You could be yelling for good cause but she doesn't understand that. That is why I told her while you were on the phone with her to stop worrying about what was going on with mama or daddy and to just talk about herself. I haven't kept her from you and the reason I called you was so you COULD talk to her. If you felt you couldn't call her because you didn't want to talk to me I didn't want Kat to suffer through it. I put myself on the line knowing that calling you was going to hurt me because I knew you would be cold to me. I let myself get hurt so y'alls relationship could stop suffering.

Agin even? I'm beyond mad any longer, but look at your post objectively.... you cry, I yell, your hurt because I'm cold, you called because I wouldn't??

How some jes never learn, how do you blame everthin of that conversation on Katheryn's perceptions?? What could she know? You've prevented me from talkin to er for a week, how could she know anythin from me?? When did she hear me yell?

No answers to these questions would be the usual response.

you hurt....... poor victim in a twisted world, how sad it is for you, oh how very sad it is for you, I don't mean it sarcastically, I mean it heart felt, how sad this is for you, that you can not own up to anythin, nuthin, not one damned thin. To be exact she said that she, you an er anut prayed to git the devil off MY back... me... agin... thank you Sarah, you've shown me far more in this world then I ever wanted to know of pain an sufferin. I don't recall Katheryn ever comin up wit thins to pray for anyways, an unless that's changed in the last week since I was at your house I think you are bald faced liein. When I was there, I tried to git Kat to pray that God would make er feel better, an she skipped it ever time, she wouldn't repeat the words after me, she'd skip it.. an I'm sposed to believe you? That she's "always"? Who are you? What happened to the Sarah I knew? The one who was actually true to er word?

I'm not going to argue with you. I think discussions like these should be left for a counselor who can help guide us not to hurt each other while things are talked out. I'd be very happy to respond but I think it would be helpful to both of us if an objective third party trained in these things were present.

I'm hardly surprised, I have no intentions of seein you agin Sarah, I am jes now afraid for my daughter, are you goin to tongue lash er because she spoke sumthin to soon? The wrong way? How horrible this truly is.

You know what her prayer was tonight? For God to please make her daddy happy again one day because he's so unhappy and has been for a long time. Did you tell her you were unhappy Louis? Or did she just pick up on it? You are blessed Louis to have a little girl who prays for her daddy that way. It's a shame that she wasn't able to tell you about them without you feeling like I was feeding her information to make you look bad. All she wanted to do was tell you that she had prayed for you...:( what a sad, sad situation...

Lie about me all you want, say whatever you want bout me, but don't you dare lie bout my children, how dare you? Clay the rage is acomin.... She only said anythin at all when I asked er who told er that I was mad. So who told er Sarah? I haven't talked to er, who told er I was mad? How could she pick up on anythin when she's not had ANY contact wit me at all??

But.. as usual.. allow the rage to settle for a moment... as usual, you neglected everthin bout how it's all me. How can you be so? why be so? I'm so unhappy because?? Because I decided to not be happy? How dare you do such an evil thin? How dare you make light of it, as if it's not what it appears? All I have are your actions. An they don't bold well for you now. How horrible a thin to have done.